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Supposedly, you can tell a lot about someone by the type of music they listen to. Let’s find out, shall we? Hit shuffle on your iPod, phone, iTunes library, media player, etc., and write down the first 20 songs that come up, no expectations. Then pass this challenge to 10 of your mutual followers.

I WAS TAGGED BY: Pat of constant-delight

  1. Not Giving In - Rudiment
  2. Cologne - Clean Bandit feat. Nikki Cislyn & Javeon
  3. Team - Lorde
  4. A Town Called Paradise - Tiësto feat. Zac Barnett
  5. I Won’t Let You Go - Snow Patrol
  6. Polish Girl - Neon Indian
  7. Turn It Around - Lucius
  8. It Is Hidden - Marching Band
  9. Classic - MKTO
  10. Maps - Maroon 5
  11. Two Weeks - Grizzly Bear
  12. Beautiful Times - Owl City
  13. Demons - Imagine Dragons
  14. Idea of Happiness - Van She
  15. Triple Trouble - Beastie Boys
  16. Kemosabe - Everything Everything
  17. Sing - Ed Sheeran
  18. Sun Models - Odesza feat. Madelyn Grant
  19. Heartbeat - The Silent Scene
  20. Girls - The 1975

I WILL TAG:

cinde-rebel, fidesss, jeraldear, askinnylover, tinayblogs, theleiregeel, gomezanna, akojersey, keithdc, and cjaeism.

SELF-APPRECIATION POST

I think I need this once in a while to help improve my self-worth and self-esteem. Appreciating one’s appearance, traits, and personality can help you be a better person, really! This is not about bragging but of being optimistic about one’s self.

  • I feel so proud of myself when I exert effort in one task and receive the reward I should get. Sometimes, I just get lucky and I thank the universe for it.
  • "The hair is a lady’s crowning glory." I agree! I just love my hair too much, now it’s long enough to reach almost the end of my spine. Having my long hair makes me feel comfortable, honestly. But since one should take care of her hair, I would let it be trimmed so the split ends will be cut off.
  • Some said that multi-tasking is not good, but for me, it is my expertise. I get to do the things that needs to be done, and the things I want to be done, especially when it comes to watching TV shows or reading novels!
  • I might not be as skinny as other girls but I am still proud that I can still do a lot of physical activities well, with it, I can consider myself fit and healthy. I’ll just have to continue eating more leafy foods and eating less sweets & salts.
  • Being a bookworm is not just about the hobby, it is also about what you learn in the stories you read, whether you may apply it in your studies or in your life. I will always and forever be a bookworm!
  • I am a jack of all trades, meaning, I am average to the things I know. I benefit from being one, yes, but I want to focus on one aspect and be excellent in it. As of now, I am actually working on it.
  • I love myself because there is only one me in the whole universe!
The Real Self

This year’s recollection may not be as tearful as last year’s but it has been fruitful and memorable. This recollection, I felt the:

Connection. 

There has been a communication between me and the family. Although the sharing part was only by group, we still shared our deepest thoughts and points of view in our lives. Some cried, it is inevitable; some shared funny memories. With this simple activity, we actually got to know each other better. I also had a communication with God, and with that I feel that we connected with each other. I shared my problems with him and my thoughts about the present and about my future.

Peace.

An hour was given for us to be able to reflect on ourselves and our lives. I’m proud to say that I was able to do that. I challenged myself to explore the Oasis and find an object which can represent me and my personality. While doing this, I passed by the chapel and saw that it was empty. I went in and tried playing the piano. I played a piece which I can remember, and I was able to let my feelings out through the music. It was the kind of peace I’ve been searching for my whole life, and I felt it in that moment.

Strength.

I felt my weaknesses fade away. Since the theme for this recollection is “The Real Self”, Father Wesley discussed about self-worth and self-esteem. In the past weeks, I seriously felt like I was failing in all aspects of life and all I would do is cry. Learning all about self-worth and that I need to really live the bible verse I appreciate so much “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9), I felt stronger. Like my group mates said we will always be “heart strong!”

Appreciation.

I had the chance to talk to almost everyone in the family, and I felt that when they are giving their attention, I am valued and appreciated. Especially when Vicki, Lauren, Bryan, and Angela (shout out to the Socks family!) allowed me to hang out with them. With these things, my self-esteem actually rising.

Enjoyment.

Aside the spiritual help this recollection has given me, fun and joy was also a part of the whole experience. A lot of selfies and groupies were taken, even continuous shots which we can make into gifs. Even Ma’am Bennie joined us in our silly photoshoots! I love that everyone cooperated, even though we’re a bit noisy, so that everyone enjoyed the day. Thanks so much, Xavie! I love you, guys!

Birthday Special: Presents & Gifts

Material gifts may not be the same value of abstract gifts like friendship, trust, and love, but it is still a way of showing someone you value them.

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The Mortal Instruments (Book Six): City of Heavenly Fire

This was given to me (and actually to my sister as well) by my dad because I requested him to. Two weeks without allowance but it was worth it! I just finished the book, and Cassandra Clare did not ever disappoint me throughout the whole series. If some things are messed up at the end of one book, it will be fixed in the next one. I love how her prequel series characters entered Clary and Jace’s generation of Shadowhunters!

Thank you so much, dad!

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Blouses of Different Kinds

My mom has a thing for picking the right clothes for me, and of course, this is what she gave me. I love how she knows what kind of blouses I want: the baggy and comfy ones. The navy striped blouse reminds me of a sailor, then reminds me of an anchor, then of Teen Wolf and the line “Be your own anchor”, made me fangirl a bit! I love, love, love the second blouse because of its design. There’s something about triangles that attracts me to it.

I appreciate your gift, mom!

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Fujifilm Instax Mini 8 + 30 sheets of Instant Film

This gift was also a request, but I didn’t expect to receive it right away! I expected maybe three or four months from now. Anyway, it came from my beloved uncle (Nanong) and aunt (Tita Bless). They, together with their children, (my cousins) Era and Ela, came home for the month of July. Welcome home!! They are really close to my heart for they are so kind and so fun to be with! Even before they married, we, Zaira and I, were their first children. We hung out with them a lot before. Now they live in Qatar and they are just visiting us now.

P.S. I called my aunt Tita Bless even though she is not really a sister of my mom, it’s just what I usually call her and I just got used to it.

Shukran jazeelan, Nanong and Tita Bless!

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I call these other gifts I received “indirect gifts” because it is not actually intended to be a gift for me but to everyone, it just happened that I received it on the day of my birthday, June 24:

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I started making poems again.. just to be productive.

P.S. The photo is not mine, just got it here on tumblr.

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For The Better: Changes in RC (HS Department)

As I’ve said before, there are changes in Rogationist College (HS Department), and I am to cite some which I’ve experienced this week:

  1. "Blue Day", which happens every Friday, is a day when the students and teachers wear their blue RC-trademarked tees and pants instead of the regular uniforms. It is also called "wash day" since the uniforms can be washed because we are not wearing it on that day. At first, I actually thought that this is unnecessary, but today, I think it is beneficial and necessary (and wearing jeans makes me feel more comfortable rather than wearing a palda, and it also reminds me that the next day after that is weekend already!)
  2. Even the SBO elections in RC became automated, how awesome is that? I really want to try developing programs like these, although I don’t know how, really. That’s why I admire those who made this to make it easier for us to vote. Although there were some technical problems, and I, myself, experienced it. When I typed my student ID number and password, a pop-up box saying that I’ve voted already. It turns out that I used my sister’s student ID number and they used the same ID number for me because we have very similar names (Ziara and Zaira — confusing right?) I also heard that others’ votes were changed or not counted, but this is just the first time. There’s always room for improvement, and I’m looking forward to it!
  3. Newly elected SBO officers were announced at the flag retreat, and I believe each and every one of them deserved their positions, I just hope they prove it to be true! With the new set of officers, I hope they will really do the platforms they planned, the words they said to assure us to trust them, and the promises they made for the difference they can make for RC and the students.
  4. New moderators are assigned in each club, only some teachers stayed in the same club as last year. So in some clubs, others have to audition again to be able to join or ‘first come, first serve’ will be the policy.
Okay? Okay.

Mediocre. Average. Middling.

These words described what I feel. Even this day felt like “well… okay” because it started with the worst events.

To be honest, I’m really trying hard to excel and stand out but today, I don’t think I would feel and even be like this. It is like all my determination and goals went down the brain drain.

Is it because I’m tired? Or am I just being slothful? Maybe because the moody switch is turned on? Or am I just being pathetic? Even I, myself, can’t tell. 

At the end, thinking of how I responded to the things I needed to do, I become guilty and blame myself, “Why didn’t I put more effort into doing this project or that activity?” Of course, I would still take the blame even if there is no answer to my self-interrogation.

This is not good. If this becomes a habit, it is a bad one. This needs change, okay? 

Okay. Nevertheless, this is just one day. There are more days, more chances to come that I may not repeat this all over again.