This year’s recollection may not be as tearful as last year’s but it has been fruitful and memorable. This recollection, I felt the:
There has been a communication between me and the family. Although the sharing part was only by group, we still shared our deepest thoughts and points of view in our lives. Some cried, it is inevitable; some shared funny memories. With this simple activity, we actually got to know each other better. I also had a communication with God, and with that I feel that we connected with each other. I shared my problems with him and my thoughts about the present and about my future.
An hour was given for us to be able to reflect on ourselves and our lives. I’m proud to say that I was able to do that. I challenged myself to explore the Oasis and find an object which can represent me and my personality. While doing this, I passed by the chapel and saw that it was empty. I went in and tried playing the piano. I played a piece which I can remember, and I was able to let my feelings out through the music. It was the kind of peace I’ve been searching for my whole life, and I felt it in that moment.
I felt my weaknesses fade away. Since the theme for this recollection is “The Real Self”, Father Wesley discussed about self-worth and self-esteem. In the past weeks, I seriously felt like I was failing in all aspects of life and all I would do is cry. Learning all about self-worth and that I need to really live the bible verse I appreciate so much “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9), I felt stronger. Like my group mates said we will always be “heart strong!”
I had the chance to talk to almost everyone in the family, and I felt that when they are giving their attention, I am valued and appreciated. Especially when Vicki, Lauren, Bryan, and Angela (shout out to the Socks family!) allowed me to hang out with them. With these things, my self-esteem actually rising.
Aside the spiritual help this recollection has given me, fun and joy was also a part of the whole experience. A lot of selfies and groupies were taken, even continuous shots which we can make into gifs. Even Ma’am Bennie joined us in our silly photoshoots! I love that everyone cooperated, even though we’re a bit noisy, so that everyone enjoyed the day. Thanks so much, Xavie! I love you, guys!